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Work is extremely Not Great at the moment, as I have mentioned previously. TL;DR version is that I ended up doing almost thirty two hours last week (WAY over my contracted hours) - and I've just done four days in a row, and they were all long shifts, and by close yesterday, I was so tired I swear I could have fallen asleep standing up.

I also know I was a bit asshole-ish with a couple of people, because the more exhausted I get, the less I care to maintain my filters, so people get shitty me. But I am aware I do it, so maybe (especially in this job?) I maintain them a little bit more than I have done previously? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
(though I did still want to punch the guy who said I was doing a great job in spite of the situation and although I'm sure he wasn't being patronising, I sure as heck felt like I was being patronised).

Anyway, I was already exhausted before all the *gestures at the situation* kicked off, and now I am more so. YAY. And I'm very sore, which sort of proves to me that at least some of my pain is a stress response, so I need to mention that to the doctor, when I eventually get an appointment.

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In other news, I went to Burnley last week on one of my days off just for a "getting t f out of the house" trip, and ended up buying a bunch of stuff I didn't need (hands up who is surprised). And some stuff I did, like I finally got a rack and two small baking tins for my air fryer, so hopefully that will encourage me to use it a bit more, idk.

I also bought a scrapbook to use as a sketchbook, which is a terrible idea, but it is 30x30cm, and I sort of fancied a sketchbook in that size, so I'm going to see how annoying I find it without forking out as much money as it would have cost me. (Also I really like square sketchbooks? I don't know why but I do. And I have used books in the past that are not intended to be sketchbooks, so this is not a new turn of events).

And I went in CEX and bought Pillars of Eternity II and Stranger of Paradise. I picked that over FFVII Remake because, while I would rather play FFVII, I don't have a PS5 so I can play the rest of the parts. Stranger of Paradise is at least a standalone. I don't know how much it will make me want to punch myself in the face, but I am willing to give it a go.

Pillars of Eternity I know nothing about, apart from some of the soundtrack from the first game was used in Critical Role, and that's it.

I don't know when I will get to playing either game, as it's been ages since I wanted to switch on the PS4, and I just don't feel like I've had the energy to play games lately (for reasons stated above). But they'll still be there when I want them, though.

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I don't think I've got anything else for the moment, and I've got counselling soon, so I shall end this entry here for now!

My final thoughts on Clair Obscur; DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU HAVE SEEN THE CREDITS!

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